Seriously? My "baby" is a year old already?
It seems like just yesterday....late nights crying, worrying and wondering..."why us?" The day we found out our son had Spina Bifida my husband and I sat on the couch with our laptop, reading gruesome stories, holding each other and crying. It seemed our world had come crashing down around us and we were only 19 years old. We had seen soo many ungrateful teen moms drink, smoke and do drugs during their pregnancies and have perfect babies. "Why us?" From the moment we had gotten together we had plans of marriage and children. Our love was much stronger than those teen parents so "why us?" Because God had a plan to grow our love so far beyond anything have could have known.
Here we are, with a one year old "toddler" and what a wonderful year it has been! Jonah has done nothing but surprise and amaze us since day one! We like to call him our little torndao because he is soo busy, crawling and destroying everything! "If only I had known then what I know now" Life wouldn't have been nearly as scary for those first months. We have a perfect little toddler who crawls, stands, says "Da-Da" and just loves life. Everything he does he does with a smile. We are just soo completely in love and blessed to have him in our lives!
Stories, memories, and precious moments from our life.
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
A Letter to my Son
Jonah,
From the first time I saw you I loved you like I have never loved before! Now you are almost nine months old and you have taught me so much. You have taught me about strength, faith, hope, courage, responsibility, and love. The words strength and courage really stick out to me when I think about you. You are the strongest little boy I have ever met. You have been through soo much at such a young age and for that you have so much courage! Jonah you are an amazing little boy and I know you will grow up to be such a strong man. You can do anything you set your mind to. Trust me, I wanted to be a mommy and God gave me you. You are the most beautiful gift I have ever gotten. You continue to put a smile on my face everyday and always will. My baby boy you have the strength of a thousand men and wisdom beyond your years. You never cease to amaze me and make me soo proud! I can not wait to see the boy you will grow into over the next few years. You, my sweet angel, have such a bright future. "If ever there is a tomorrow when we are not together there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we are apart...I will always be with you!"
Mommy loves you Jo Jo and always will!
From the first time I saw you I loved you like I have never loved before! Now you are almost nine months old and you have taught me so much. You have taught me about strength, faith, hope, courage, responsibility, and love. The words strength and courage really stick out to me when I think about you. You are the strongest little boy I have ever met. You have been through soo much at such a young age and for that you have so much courage! Jonah you are an amazing little boy and I know you will grow up to be such a strong man. You can do anything you set your mind to. Trust me, I wanted to be a mommy and God gave me you. You are the most beautiful gift I have ever gotten. You continue to put a smile on my face everyday and always will. My baby boy you have the strength of a thousand men and wisdom beyond your years. You never cease to amaze me and make me soo proud! I can not wait to see the boy you will grow into over the next few years. You, my sweet angel, have such a bright future. "If ever there is a tomorrow when we are not together there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we are apart...I will always be with you!"
Mommy loves you Jo Jo and always will!
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
The Beginning...
This is the beginning story of our journey with Spina Bifida and our son Jonah...
Doctors, nurses, specialists...they all meant the same thing to us at this point. But way back then I remember sitting in that very first Doctors office with all the wonderful thoughts running through my head that every first time mother or parent must have. Will it be a girl or a boy? Will I be a good mom? Is he/she going to look like me? I never thought that I would have much more important things to think about over the next nine months. The doctor had asked many questions but the one that stuck out to me the most is if I would like to do any testing for birth defects and my answer was very straight forward, "No! No matter what could happen this is my baby and nothing would change that." God must have decided to test my faith because nine weeks later I am sitting in a totally different doctors office receiving the news that my son has "myelomeningocele" a type of Spina Bifida. Those dreaded words..."There's a defect" were ringing in my ears and my eyes were filling with tears as I sat there in shock. I finally got the strength to mouth to Zach "thats BAD" and let him take it from there. We left the office will little information on what the future held for our son and walked out to our pickup. I dialed the number to my moms house and she answered happily, awaiting to know the sex of her newest grandbaby little did she know that wasn't the biggest news we recieved. I told her it was a boy and handed the phone to Zach as I turned into a mess of tears. We spent a few moments calling the closests family members and letting them know the news. It felt hard to face the world but we had plans to go baby shopping after the appointment and I was determined to do so despite all the hard news. That day marked the beginning of the rest of our lives. Doctors appointments, specialists, Spina Bifida Clinic, boots, casts, surgeries and more...
Doctors, nurses, specialists...they all meant the same thing to us at this point. But way back then I remember sitting in that very first Doctors office with all the wonderful thoughts running through my head that every first time mother or parent must have. Will it be a girl or a boy? Will I be a good mom? Is he/she going to look like me? I never thought that I would have much more important things to think about over the next nine months. The doctor had asked many questions but the one that stuck out to me the most is if I would like to do any testing for birth defects and my answer was very straight forward, "No! No matter what could happen this is my baby and nothing would change that." God must have decided to test my faith because nine weeks later I am sitting in a totally different doctors office receiving the news that my son has "myelomeningocele" a type of Spina Bifida. Those dreaded words..."There's a defect" were ringing in my ears and my eyes were filling with tears as I sat there in shock. I finally got the strength to mouth to Zach "thats BAD" and let him take it from there. We left the office will little information on what the future held for our son and walked out to our pickup. I dialed the number to my moms house and she answered happily, awaiting to know the sex of her newest grandbaby little did she know that wasn't the biggest news we recieved. I told her it was a boy and handed the phone to Zach as I turned into a mess of tears. We spent a few moments calling the closests family members and letting them know the news. It felt hard to face the world but we had plans to go baby shopping after the appointment and I was determined to do so despite all the hard news. That day marked the beginning of the rest of our lives. Doctors appointments, specialists, Spina Bifida Clinic, boots, casts, surgeries and more...
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